The Labrynth of My Mind. - im totally on the road to heartbreak...again

wow ive dropped off the face of the earth.....ive been busy and im not a 100% sure with what lol work and hanging out with ppl i guess im proly going to bounce all over the place so bear with me....(icecream!)....for valentines day trevor got me a dozen red roses and some chocolates i feel a little guilty that i didnt really get him anything but i told him i didnt really do valentines day however he did get laid so he shouldnt complain overly much and his parents are in mexico right now which is part of the reason ive been MIA. in the two weeks since i last rambled on  ive been to colins twice....last week and today. colins reasoning is that him and thea are going extremely slow and that he knows he wont be getting any from her in a while part of me says i need to grow a backbone when it conserns colin the other part of me wishes that it was just a front and that he cares more for me then hell admit and dating thea is his way of trying to distance himself...all i can say is i never thought id turn into a cheater