The Labrynth of My Mind.

so im finally moved out of my appartment and taking over colins and theres a lot of shit to go with it.  apperently according to colins mom katrinas spreading a rumor that i left her stranded for a roomate which isnt true because all i told her was that we looked at a house and she called me 20 mins later saying that she put in her notice for ot 1st well i have coliins mom on my side.. when mom and i went to move my stuff on sunday there was a note saying if i wanted my deposit back i had to do all kinds of things. which makes sence it was one of those everybody gets one when they move out kind of thing. so went in today and cleaned everything...katrina had desided that she wasnt going to clean because one week when she came home there was fruit flys. well for one its the season for fruit flys and two i hadnt been home in almost 2 weeks so im not sure how it was solely my fault except that the garbage wasnt taken out. i suppose that would have been ok except for the fact she left all sorts of garbage and food and things...and she wanted me to haul them to the trash. she also wouldnt clean the oven which is the one thing i couldnt do and i never used the bloody thing shes had already turnedher keys in she says....so i spent 5 hours cleaning the bloody place only to find out i dont get my deposit back (like we originally thought) because i "broke my lease" well i couldnt afford the rent myself. however mom and i both checked out the lease and it says month to month  so shes not very impressed and is thinking about goingto the tenant court.  shes also not impressed that katrina in all likelyhood will get her deposit back cause i cleaned the place. anyway so she was supposed to keep colins mom updated and she calld her after she got off the phone with me and told her what had happened...so now colins mom is going to call susie katrinas mom aka colins aunt and colins moms sister to see iff she can find out if katrina is getting her deposit back also to tell her what katrina had done....and if katrina does get her deposit back see how much of it she can get for me.... i didnt really want this to end like this but its nice having more then my mom defending me

so yes this thing is long over due for a update...but hey greg hasnt updated his in forever... literally...its been almost a year however i dont think theres much i can ramble on that everyone doesnt already know but hey ill still update. so im pregenant due feb 1 st and in a week and a half i have my ultrasound that wil hopefully tell us if we are having a boy or a girl. i hope Baby cooperates cause i dont think i can wait 5 more mths to find out. we are going to use colins last name (Howland if you dont know) colin wont give me any input about names and such until the ultrasound however i have a girls name picked out already. Lillian Fern Howland. lol colin says hes not opposed to it but again no input funny thing tho i want a boy but for the life of me i cant think of a boys name that is a must have. unfortunatly ive dated guys with the two names i like. derrick and trevor. Lately the baby has been big enuf and active enuf for me to really start feeling it. it doesnt happen alot everyday but it happens at least once a day usually around 9-10 ish at night...you know after ive been active all day and just wanna chill..and yes ive got a belly its not huge but it is noticable. last but not least....somedays all it feels like i do is eat...others not so bad
so i read michelles last post about how ppl have been saying how shes "vanished" cause she hasnt been calling and how the phone works both ways or something like that...yeah ok but for the first little bit  i was calling two or three times a day...slowly i just stoppped calling cause i was getting frustrated. im ok with her having a life hell i guess im even happy shes got a thing for a guy however i hope she doesnt expect me to like him cause i never have and dont ever see myself doing so. i guess in theory my veiws at the moment are that if she wants to do something shell call cause im tired of talking to her voice mail
also recently cat and hani split. i feel terrible for cat and i wish  there was something i could do to help her out i know my break up was horrible so i cant even imagine what shes going through. i wish she was home. so we could go do something to distract her...like go camping! like im doing on the long weekend! so ill bring cat with me in my thoughts i guess cause thats the best i can do right now....oh and i havent lost my ring yet cat! i feel naked with out it lol just like i feel naked without my other ring.
grr i wish i had a computer!!!!! not likely to happen soon now tho :(